The Diaries Of A Sweaty Girl

I grew up thinking I would never get married.

Self conscious. Even more sweaty around a boy that I liked.

Nervous. Anxious. Sweaty. Even worse-- drippy. I thought no one would ever think that that was beautiful.

That was, until July 6, 2013.

"I'm so sorry", I said to my boyfriend as I pulled my hand away from his for the millionth time. "My hands are always so sweaty."I was feeling down on myself because I always thought I was grossing people out, and I thought this would be the same instance.

But he pulled me by the shoulders and spun me around to face him. 

"Don't ever be sorry again", he said. "I don't care. I like it. I like you. Just the way you are." He took my hand and wiped it on his shirt, interlaced my fingers again with his, and kept on walking-- talking to me as if nothing had happened.

That was when I knew someone could love me for all of me. When I knew that he was different. When I knew I wanted someone like... like him.

On December 28, 2013, that man held my hands across an altar, I stared into his deep blue eyes, and we were married for time and all eternity.

And

I grew up thinking I would never get married.

I am not writing this to have you all cheer for me and to congratulate me. I am not writing this because I am an exception.

I am writing this so that hopefully you can all change your minds a little bit about yourselves. We have the power to create the life we live in, to create our happiness and our worlds. The results we see in life are in direct correlation with the small decisions we make each and every day. We all have difficulties here in this life. Learn from them. Grow from them. Don't look back or let them hold you back-- we are our greatest bullies. Be the kind of person you want to marry. 

People will bash on you and fight you and tell you you're not pretty enough-- but it is up to you to believe it. And if you do, someone else will too. But if you believe in yourself, and your sweaty hands and embrace who you are, someone else will too. 

I grew up thinking I would never get married.

I am now a wife to my best friend, the love of my life, and the man who believed in me even when I didn't myself.

Xoxo,

Sweaty and Hawt Girl.

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I express myself in many ways. 

I like to believe that deep down inside I have an artsy soul. 

Music, writing.. these all help me to express myself.

Well recently I have been pondering hyperhidrosis and had a negative thought. I began to think, "Man, if I just didn't have this condition life would be so much better." Haha the adversary knows me so well. However, I believe I have learned how to cope with these negative thoughts and so immediately what popped into my head was that "NO. This is partly what makes me me. And I want someone who loves me for all of me. We all deserve people who will adore us for who we are, and who encourage us to be better. Someone who is happy around us and we are happy around them. Otherwise, what's the point? 

The other day on my hike, I was having a great conversation with a man. We discussed how we have the opportunity every day to do something good, better, and to change... but often times we don't. He went on to tell me how he thought that part of the problem we have in society is not that we are evil or bad, but that we are lazy. He told me we have to reach a point where we accept where we are, be okay with that and then continually try to be better each day. 

So. Stop trying to be someone else. The only one you should compare yourself to is to who you were yesterday. 

Happy Wednesday! Be confident and have a great day!

xoxo,

Sweaty and Hawt